It always hits when you are least expecting it. Slams into you like a tidal wave and leaves you floundering, gasping for breath. Your mind shuts down and everything goes black. Where are you and what has happened?
This is what is called Disassociation. It leaves you trapped, locked inside your brain. Your body is not your own and won't follow any of your commands. It is like a shell, somewhere to hide when things get tough. It is also a prison, something that locks you in and traps you, no matter how hard you hammer on the doors.
Some people walk for miles just to escape it, and others (like myself) just curl up into a tight ball and wait for it to pass; pray for it to pass.
Time has no meaning during these episodes, a minute turns into an hour and an hour turns into a day. The concept of time and light and life becomes warped, twisted.
Disassociation wipes your mind clean of everything and your body goes numb. Pain has no meaning and all emotions are devoid.
A huge void opens up inside and a numbness spreads through your body. Who am I? Where am I? Is this even real?
My whole body feels fake, not really there and my emotions have all been erased. Am an empty shell of a person and there is no hope for me.
This is what is called Disassociation. It leaves you trapped, locked inside your brain. Your body is not your own and won't follow any of your commands. It is like a shell, somewhere to hide when things get tough. It is also a prison, something that locks you in and traps you, no matter how hard you hammer on the doors.
Some people walk for miles just to escape it, and others (like myself) just curl up into a tight ball and wait for it to pass; pray for it to pass.
Time has no meaning during these episodes, a minute turns into an hour and an hour turns into a day. The concept of time and light and life becomes warped, twisted.
Disassociation wipes your mind clean of everything and your body goes numb. Pain has no meaning and all emotions are devoid.
A huge void opens up inside and a numbness spreads through your body. Who am I? Where am I? Is this even real?
My whole body feels fake, not really there and my emotions have all been erased. Am an empty shell of a person and there is no hope for me.
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