I haven't dealt with things as well as I could have, but knowing now, that there are people who know and understand has made it easier. I have been able to share things with people that I have kept inside for years. It ha been a relief to know now that I'm not alone.
I can now acknowledge that I need to change the ways in which I deal with things, but I also know that they are what has made me into the person I am today.
I'm not saying that the have defined me, but as mad as it sounds, I would never change my past. I have got really positive things from it and I will continue to experience both good and bad things throughout my life.
I can now see a future, however far off it may be. I am ready to change the way things happen and get on with my life. This spell in hospital has made me realise that bad things happen to lots of people. No-one is alone in their struggles and they can be overcome. It just takes a lot of time and hard work.