This feeling of not belonging is not something you get used to: it is something you learn to live with. For me, not belonging gives me a bubble I can use to protect myself from the human race. This prevents me from getting hurt.
This feeling can be both a blessing and a curse. It can feel surreal at times, especially when you are surrounded by people. You just look at them and think ‘What am I even doing here?’ This feeling eventually becomes the norm, and you don’t know how it feels to fit in somewhere, or feel accepted by people.
The only true feelings you know, are isolation and loneliness. You look in the mirror and see a stranger staring back at you. The only place you feel comfortable is alone, in a room somewhere. You can absorb yourself into thoughts; the only place you truly belong is in your mind. This place is your sanctuary, your safe haven.
You get used to being on the outside, and even when someone tries to accept you, you tell yourself that it is impossible; no one can accept your perfections, let alone your flaws. You push people away constantly and make sure that your bubble stays intact and that your safe haven is uninterrupted.
This feeling can be both a blessing and a curse. It can feel surreal at times, especially when you are surrounded by people. You just look at them and think ‘What am I even doing here?’ This feeling eventually becomes the norm, and you don’t know how it feels to fit in somewhere, or feel accepted by people.
The only true feelings you know, are isolation and loneliness. You look in the mirror and see a stranger staring back at you. The only place you feel comfortable is alone, in a room somewhere. You can absorb yourself into thoughts; the only place you truly belong is in your mind. This place is your sanctuary, your safe haven.
You get used to being on the outside, and even when someone tries to accept you, you tell yourself that it is impossible; no one can accept your perfections, let alone your flaws. You push people away constantly and make sure that your bubble stays intact and that your safe haven is uninterrupted.
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